But i take so much from everyone here, all I ever do is ask for support... I never feel like I help anyone...

thats not true - I have seen you give support to others - you have given support to me - its ok to ask for what you need

I just take take take here... Or so it feels... I try to give back, but... i just have so much swimming around in my head and I can't deal with it anymore, I can't cope anymore, I can't take it anymore, I Can't Do This Anymore.

before you can take care of others you have to take care of yourself - this is not selfish its survival

I will try and read those aloud to myself everyday, Sannah, and what you said too, P7. It'll be hard as I feel stupid doing self affirmations and I feel like I'm fooling myself and lying. But I'll try... It's not enough, I know, but. I'll make myself do it.

its a start

Thank you for your replies. I'm drained today, I feel sick and I just don't want to be here I have lost hope...