yeah, i can go out and have a good time too, and then go home and my depression hits hard again.

my work does the same thing too. i only get one day off a week, but i almost always get that phone call that makes it seem like im a asshole for not going in on that one day - and it's my choice that i do what they want.

i zone in and out of conversations too, and kinda of go to a dead space while doing so.

i even joined the site because i cant whine any place else without people telling me to suck it up, and i really need to whine sometimes.

i like you. we got the same problems.

hope you get some time to yourself soon. i really have no suggestions on how to do so, but i liked reading your post, so i hope you got some release from writing it.