((pegs)))) the only thing i can say is it takes time. I agree with sunflower allow others to help you. Talk it out with someone IRL if you can too. Here too of course.
It took me 8 years to get where I am with my parents and other family members I have lost. I still at times have to work on it. As when you lose a loved one or friend
it just takes time.
Keeping busy,. talking about it and time is all you can do.
Take care of you kind one.
Remember a loss of a friend or loved one is very stresfull
take care of you
and your allowed to cry that helps too . also remembering the good things about that person helps.