I empathize because I have had a great many silent sessions where in my mind, I'm screaming at myself to talk, but I can't make it happen. I have had a great many sessions, too, where T and I talk about how frustrating it is for me to not talk, and how maybe it's important that I not talk right now.

Maybe some part of you isn't ready to talk? Forcing it just makes the part of you stopping yourself dig in its heels. A lot of really good work in T can come from talking about what's happening to see the pattern. I hope you are able to bring this up with your T.