I wonder if you are still reading me since I have posted so much in the last week and it is always the same, but here it goes.
Today has been even worse than the last few days, I just cannot stop crying, I feel I am becoming obsessive about my situation, just cannot stop thinking and I am so worried this will never stop.
I have realised today that I need help, I have a good therapist, she cares but I dont feel she is helping much. Right now I feel I have so many problems, so many issues no one will be able to help me.
Has anyone ever contacted their Employee Assistance Program from work, I work for an American Company but I live in Canada, it is an option, but I do worry about the confidentiality aspect of it and also can they really help?
I am slowly cutting myself off from the very few people I have in my life, I have 2 aging parents that I only communicate with by e-mail, I dont want to worry them and they just dont understand and I feel so selfish because they might not have much time left and I havent spoken to them in a month and I havent seen them since january 1st. They are in better shape than I but still....
I have two beautiful daughters (one lives with me) they are quite worried about me but I just dont know what to tell them anymore....
I have an ex who still loves me but I think he is getting fed up with all this drama.
I have been having bad thoughts like never before...
I just dont know where to get help or if there is help out there..
I was so glad 2 months ago when I found this site because it made me feel I was not alone and someone helped me in chat today, at least did not have those dark thoughts for those few minutes but now as always I am starting to think I am just being a persona non grata here too because of all my ramblings.
I need help