You are experiencing grief, just as you must.
And yes, it is difficult. I'm so sorry.
Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.

But, as you go through these experiences, know too,
that you will, at some point, come to acceptance.
And you will find peace once more.

You will always miss your T.
No one will replace that special person; that particular relationship.
But, the saddness will be replaced, in time, with better memories.
And you will be filled with gratitude,
For the time you had together.

Peace!