Hi. I am sorry that you are going through this struggle. I think it is important that we realize that humans do not work like robots. IE it is either one way or the other. Instead we operate in ranges. One person might have a 30% physical attraction to men, and 70% attraction to women. Another might have 99% attraction to men, and 1% to women. These responses can also change depending on a lot of factors (that are not under our control, for example hormonal). It is important that you realize that you are not abnormal, there are lots and lots and lots of people that feel the way you do (far more than will admit ). Concerns such as the one that you are experiencing are very upsetting, maybe it would be a good topic to bring up with your therapist? The most important thing that you can do is to learn to love the person you are, regardless of what level of attraction to have for either sex (I know this might be very hard, especially if you have a very conservative family). Please be safe, and know that you are not alone.