Hi the1forgotten,
Take comfort in the fact that I think most of us went thro' those same feelings of fear and doubt too. However, in my case, I elected to go to T. pretty much voluntarily. It took me approximately 3-1/2 months of agonizing to accept the fact that I may be Depressed. My chiropractor was the one who suspected it and referred me to my T. after giving me a depression test. I wasn't convinced. I never in my life would have thought I was D. But, after doing a lot of research on my own, well, it seems I fit the symptoms. I still agonized over going because of the stigma attached and the fact that I couldn't tell a complete stranger my horrible secrets that I couldn't even tell my family or friends (whom I still haven't told that I'm seeing a T!). Well, all that agonizing made me more depressed and I finally mustered up the guts to ask my chiro for the phone number. It took another week to get myself to call the number and today, I'm glad I did. Unfortunately, you are being forced to go, but I'm sure, with the right T., you will not regret it. I feel so much better now with someone objective to talk to and knowing why I was feeling the way I do. I still have a long way to go (been just a couple of months), it hasn't been easy, but at least I know there is someone to listen to me and not make me feel bad for feeling bad. I hope this works out for the best for you and you have a very positive and emotionally beneficial experience. Take care...