Fallenangel,

I've kind of moved through a series of "no one else in the world truly accepts me for who I am" stages. If as I started on the journey I was in a dark place where I isolated myself from everyone. I had some good reasons for this that then over the years just spun out of control. Then I started therapy and found PC. On PC I started reading others posts and realized...there were other freaks out there who understood and had similar stuff running through their heads. This knowledge and reading how others actually shared these thoughts with their Ts and were receiving positive,caring responses led me to first share here. Then I worked my way up to sharing some things with my T. And OMG, her response was not at all what I expected and I discovered...there might be some benefit to getting my thoughts out of my head.After this, I moved to thinking...MY T is the only one in the world who I can say things to and not get judged or rejected or condemned. Now, I am hit every once in a while with great insight that...MAYBE there are others, in RL, who appear to be healthy and happy well grounded individuals who also have similar thoughts and feelings who I can also safely connect with. I'm still working on this last step and getting myself to find and then take advantage of 2-way sharing these individuals.

I don't like to think about being attached to my mentor, but deep down I am. Its hard to admit that..maybe that is just another step on the path.