Wow, FZ that makes a hell of a lot of sense and feels just how I would have put it had I been able to make sense of it all!

I guess it's like any real dog, pat the dog on the head for warning you when it thinks there's danger and take the dog aside so you can start to deal with this "danger" yourself. Makes a lotta sense... I think if I start to think like this, I'll be able to make much more sense of it and start to work on stopping him from constantly badgering me everytime something good happens because he thinks something bad will come out of it.

See... My watchdog tends to want to keep me away from people to keep me safe, to stop me from getting hurt, but like P7 said... Isolation hurst ever so much more I do try to watch out for myself instead of my watchdog wathing out for me all of the time, it is so damn difficult to get him to back down!!!!!!

BUT. I thought today would be the day that I went out to my local Citizens Advice Bureau and asked about whether I can legally get my dog back. I Knew they'd say no, but something in my heart told me to just quit being an arse and do it. I did it and she said YES!! Woohoo!!! So, I have to write a letter to my Adoptive Parents (EEEEEKKK!! Watchdog on super alert!!!!) stating that I wish to have my dog back and if they do not cooperate, I will be forced to take the matter further. Wow. I'm terrified, but something says this may scare them, make them realise that I am in fact more powerful than they think I am and that yes, I do know what I'm doing and yes, I did seek legal advice. If they do refuse to cooperate, I have to see a solicitor for a 20 minute free consultation. Whoa... Never done that before either! They can then tell me where to go next, who to see and how to go about the next steps. I will be sending a copy of the letter to the owners of my dogs' parents as well as The Adoptive Parents and of course, to myself! I'm so, so anxious about it, but so excited at the same time!! Now I know that I can go to legal advisors and get them to help me to win my little angel back!

Today has been a difficult day, having to think about The Adoptive Parents. If I have to see them, I'll probably collapse. They scare me so much at times, I'd probably pee my pants, espcially if Shana gave me that disgusting, evil, yellow toothy grin. Ugh. It scares me

I feel I have a twisted stomach today, so much so that I feel slightly sick. Not fun... I'm trying to stop watchdog from biting me to stop me from doing this, it's tough, but it's something I feel that I need to do to keep myself safe and be able to recover..

God give me strength.

(((P7))) (((Pomegranate))) (((FZ))) :Grouphug: