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Originally Posted by multipixie9
Laura,
don't know where you are on your decision to work with the T you mentioned. One thing stuck out and bothered me for a survivor of abuse. You said the T works from home in his "sleepers". Do you mean his pajamas? That just doesn't seem healthy to me. He is there for a client, not a nap. If I didn't misunderstand, I'd have to say for me as a DID person that would be uncomfortable and off-putting.
Also, it sounds like he started in with you and then discovered you have some longer term things to work out and that maybe he and the EDMR stuff is not going to be something he can work with you. I just want you to be safe and helped. You need to feel safe with whomever you work with and sometimes in therapy I've had to move on after a short time when I saw that something was not going to work out for me. Not all clients and therapists are a guaranteed fit.
I know you will find someone who can be a true help to you. You need that! IMO. Wishing things go well for you,
Leslie and her pixies
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thanks sweetheart, just when i think i cant get any more overwhelmed by people's kindness
but i should have "read" my post back, i call "slippers" "sleepers", i should have seen that one, yeah think i would have completely freaked if he was in his pj's!.
i've still been all over the place, my mind has been freakin, its been like different parts have been screamin what way to go, feel like im running in a million different directions, i did go back & see him, i started to go totally the other way, panic'ing at the thought of not seeing him, time felt like it was running out & everything was closing in again, did tell him exactly how this has made me feel, didnt hold anything back, he did assure me that he is here for however long it takes, has the experience/competence to help me, he did say one day we "may" be able to "return to some of the approaches" we have used before, (EMDR), but our approach now has to be "different", i know i really dont do myself any favours, my mind just keeps exploding, cant control it, i like things contained & in control, didnt expect any of this to be easy, but i didnt expect to feel completely exposed.