Today was a very long day. I was worried all day for the appointment and went to go get my cast removed just to find out i need it on for 4 more weeks. I was not happy about that. Then when i got out of there I realized that I had time to kill before therapy. I tried to get my mind off of it by going to the book store. By the time I made it to the therapists office I had to take double my dose of xanax. I was so scared. I started the appointment okay, talking a little here and there. answering yes or no questions for the most part. Then she got to one question that made me shut down. I told her that I didn't want to come back. She scheduled me for 3 more appointments and the next one is two weeks away so that I can 'think' about going back. I told her I was going to just cancel them but she tried to convince me that she really really wanted me to come back. It was horrible and now I'm in a really bad place, it's making me scared.