I am also proud of you for sticking it out and going!

I know it's NEVER easy, but I would like to encourage you to stick it out, and don't give up just yet. I would talk to your T and tell her that you're not comfortable discussing whatever topic her unwanted question was about yet. I think in time, you will find it easier to make progress, and maybe even in time, easier to discuss that particular issue. Perhaps in 2 weeks you two could discuss what you wrote here, and the reason you don't want to go back.

You've already made a huge leap...the first session is always the hardest. It's not a landslide from here, but the hardest part is over.

Again, I'm really proud of you, and if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here.