3 weeks no SI - yeah!!!!!! I havnt broken my promise to T - yeah!!!!
today I had to have a CT and xrays - all ok - but i had to wear a sleevelss gown for the xray so you could see the cuts on my arm and wrist where my watch usually is - they looked gross - ugly - (like I feel on the inside)
and the guy treated me like a freak - like I was going to attack him or somthing -
ok that was bad.......
and I wanted to SI really really really badly - BUT
I didnt!!!! YEAH !!!!!!!!
so its still THREE WHOLE WEEKS with NO SI......(physical harm) I still overspend and overeat - they are the next things i will deal with
that and the self loathing that brought me to SI in the first place - tiny steps
But hey 3 weeks no cutting!!!!!! yeah!!!!!
If I can do it so can you guys
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )
When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet