(((((((((Tmac)))))))))

I'm sorry things have gotten so hard for you. I don't know what I'd do if my files were subpoenaed, and I know it probably sounds silly, but try to be as open with your T as you can despite that (I know, easier said than done...) Bottling anything up any further than you already has isn't going to make things any easier. Maybe even if you're not willing to discuss particular issues with her right now, you could just sit and talk about how you're feeling on a given day? Sometimes there's a real release in just acknowledging all the feelings you're having even if you're not exploring their source.

Good luck with everything, and keep us posted on how you're doing.