I am not handling this well, actually I'm not even handling it.
Won't answer the phone 'cause I don't want to talk to them about it, which is foolish since I will have to sooner or later.

took the hep lock out myself
looks like my session with T on Friday already has a "topic."
if I keep the appt

thinking a long weekend away might help me shake off this rotten, belligerent attitude