Imsorry TPND - I had someone like your adoptive family - and i thought if only i do this they wilkl love me - well i did and they still didnt love me - they just kept raising the bar and I coulod never reach it - eventually I had to realise I would never meet their standards because they didint want me too - that they were toxic and I had to live without them jmo but your adoptive parents sound the same.

sneding you lots of hugs