I feel like I want to quit or cancel my next appointment all the time, I struggle with it constantly. I have to dig deep inside to resist and refrain. One of these days I am going to fail and just walk away and then regret it. It is always all or nothing with me.

I got as close as telling her once when I was upset that I needed time off. She asked if I would like to come in and discuss it and I said no, and she said, "okay, call me when you are ready". Knowing me I would never make that call.

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