I had to laugh when I read the title of this thread, because it sounds so much like me. I feel Peaches post explains it all, so wise....
Therapy IS very hard and to me it is like not wanting to touch the hot stove. I think it is natural for us to avoid pain at all cost, whether physical or mental. You are doing okay, and it is great that you see that you are doing this. It took me a long time to realize this about myself.