Me trying to be perfect for them is what they want... That's all I want to do.. Is just give them what they want and everything'll be okay, they'll love me and accept me and want me around.

I agree with Phoenix. They are never going to treat you right no matter what you do. Maybe look at why you want their approval so much?

I just feel like everyone's out to force me to do what I least want to do everyone IRL, I mean..

And this just makes you want to gain more control through denying yourself food because they are trying to take away your control? What they are doing by trying to force you is making things worse?