I want their approval so much because they took me in to love me, support me, want me, care about me, cherish me as their own.

Did they do this, though????????

I want their approval so much because they have high expectations and they seem to know how to meet such high standards and I just want to be able to meet such high standards too.

Their high expectations are not for the benefit of your personal growth and development, though. Their high expectations are used to degrade and control you.

I want their approval because... Because I feel like everyone likes them because they have such high standards.

Everyone likes them???????????????????

I wish I could just eat, just accept who I am and not let anyone disrespect me for who I am.

You have to work towards this (work through it) and this is exactly what you are doing!

You can't stop people from disrespecting you, though. All you can do is avoid these people or ignore them.

I just want those who are important to me to just... Want me to be me, who just love me for being me and want to be friends with me, for being me.

And who are you chosing who are important to you? Who you chose makes all the difference. You can't win if you chose toxic people.

but I feel like if I show that little girl inside of me, the one that is the true me, they'll all run away.. I couldn't deal with that...

If you chose the right people this won't happen............