I wish I could change it, though... That's the problem...

I know that one reason i starve so much is because I want to be thin, like they want me to, to be perfect like they want me to be... Because of always being called fat and ugly and not good enough and disgusting, repulsive, chubs, fatty, heffalump. Ugh. No wonder I think I'm fat! Even when no matter what heavy jumpers I wore, my bones protruded, I still thought I was fat because they told me so! GRRRRRRR

I hate what they've done and said... I just want to be okay. I just want to be happy. I just want my angel back. I just want to be NORMAL.