I'm sorry you have had to go through so much!!!

I was severely depressed, and I would literally forget to eat, or brush my teeth, or that showers were necessary. Ended up making a schedule, because it might have taken me all day but I finished the list of:

1)eat
2)brush teeth
3) Shower
4) wash clothes(once a week only)

Is your pdoc tweaking your meds for you?