i think... that i might have a problem.
im not thin or emaciated or anything... but ive become really obsessed with food.
im fasting for days at a time, restricting my calorie intake to 500 a day and even eating that makes me feel like a pig.
i feel unworthy of food.
i feel disgusting.
i want to be thin and perfect and happy.
and its not happening. im still just as fat. maybe i always will be. urgh. its just all too much... i feel... so messed up... so unworthy... such a failiure... so unhappy.
i think life used to be easy...
now its all just so hard.