Hello All,
I am new here so forgive me if I don't say things in the right way or use the right terminology..but I used to being misunderstood...Sometimes, I think I speak a different language than everyone else and that is why I get in so much trouble.
I've read some articles lately that had me thinking I could possibly have ADD...I'm 62 years old and have been struggling with some of these problems on and off most of my remembered life...more on than off.
I'm also the Adult Child of a Deceased Alcholic Father and Co-Dependent Mom...I been married to a man for 40 years who I love but 10 years ago found out some of the dysfunction in my family wasn't all me when I discovered he was addicted to pornography, strippers and sex and probably more that he hasn't admitted to me yet, mayber never will. He is in a 12 step program for the last 4 years and really trying to work it and help others...Trust with me may not be fully restored yet as my mind tends to lead me to catastrophic thoughts all the time. Prayer really helps me, but I cannot be with hands folded and on my knees 24/7.
I want to know resources, and helps to get me organized in my thoughts, daily routine life, with my relationships, and possibly back to work...

The day goes by and here I sit, guilty and dreading my husband coming home and finding me like this...I am creative...a decent watercolor painter, drawer and anything to do with the arts inspires me...I love nature and animals... I have raised to daughters, sent them to college, held down jobs when I had to, had friends. belonged to groups, church. I believe I am a good Grandma, but have trouble relating to my married Daughter and her Husband...recent problems there that seem to take up a lot, way to much, of my mind. Try to say "This too will pass", helps, but not for long. Does this sound familiar...I refuse to take drugs...was on Paxil for 8 years and it make me like cardboard...no feelings or sense of self whatsoever...Anything natural out there helped anyone else? So grateful for any help you can offer me....Have to kind of putter now and at least look like I tried to do something today. Guilt, it kills ya know.
Thank you