multipixie9--

Thank you for taking the time to write to me and share with me some of your experiences. I know I am not alone in what I am experiencing and my thoughts and feelings--but it is good to hear that others understand what I feel.

I know what you spoke of about the feelings of being a wife and mother and the other things going on at the same time within myself and no one knew, I kept it all inside, until I too would feel that pressure build so high that I would explode within myself. No one could know what was going on as I was not allowed to tell.

I do understand that the things we did as a child to survive are not what will help us now as adults. I also know that I just got out of the abuse not very long ago, and am just now learning of things. But I hear and so appreciate what you have said, please know that.

I am trying to work on and learn of things I have never known about. The pain seems so deep and like it will never end--but I am willing to do the work I have to do. I just sometimes need to let someone know what I feel--what it feels like inside--what is going on.

I am sorry that you lost all you lost going through all this and I can say I understand in a lot of ways losing things--I too have lost alot. But I appreciate your being honest with me, it means a lot.

I thank you for the validation that I will be okay and that I will find my way through this, and that you took the time to write. You say that "words are meant to communicate but sometimes they just really can't do enough"--knowing that someone cares enough to take the time to share and let someone know there is hope--gives words a lot of meaning.

I realize that our healing may be different, but I look forward to the time when I can someday write this way and say that I feel the way you do. No everything for a DIDer may never be totally the way we would like--but it is in the working and not giving up and reaching out to one another that counts.

I thank you and I wish you continued healing and peace.

dps