yes. i have been struggling with this recently - it is freaking me out. usually i am so independent, and able to just rely on myself, that it is getting me really upset now that i'm thinking of calling pdoc when bad things happen, instead of just dealing with them the way i previously would've.

i dont know if i have anything useful to say, but just wanted to say that i relate. i tried to bring this up with pdoc today, but i'm too embarrassed/ashamed to admit it that i don't think he got what i was really going on about.