Fallenangel,

Depression strips us of several things, One of those being the ability to have a positive outlook. Yes a lot of people who are depressed have a lot going for them but depression strikes and takes away mobility, motivation, personal will to do anything. It makes you lethargic, lacking hunger and ability to care for yourself.

So don't be hard on yourself. If you wanted to you could start out each day making a list of positive things to think about to help you negate the negative things that go on in your mind. Like a gratitude list. That would be a great idea. It might even help combat the depression.

I hope you get better soon.

Love and Hugs,
Tara