I think crying would trigger me too, I think it'd bring back the times when I did cry and I'd suddenly clam up and become the fearful, cowering child afraid that I'm going to get hit for crying, for showing emotion. I do accept other getting triggered a lot more easily than I do when it happens to me, I care for them and I talk through it with them and help them to understand it a little better and calm down etc. That's exactly how it is. I'm fine with others being triggered and getting upset, but when it's me, nuh-uh. I'm not allowed..

The people calling me fat and such weren't friends... They were The Adoptive Family. Even my Twin called me fat. Maybe they did think that they could get my goat by telling me that I'm fat etc, and yes. It worked. They got my goat and now it's really screwed things up for me. Well done "Family" good frickin' job! *claps hands*.
Yeah, seeing you put it that way does make a good point... I don't know if they'll accept me, but there's such a huge part of me that would give anything to just see if they'll accept me.

I'm not in league with them, I'm just carrying on the punishments that they gave me. I'm carrying the hate that they showed me and everything... I can't help it, they were like that towards me, so now I think that I have to carry that on to please them... Maybe they had a hard time appreciating themselves, but IMHO, they are narcissists who hate everything and everyone that isn't like how they want them to be. I was told this by my GP. He said that they sound very much like narcissistic people and it's true... I searched it on the internet, the definition and it fits their characters perfectly! Sigh. I just wish I'd never been adopted by them...

I'm not well today.. I woke up at 1.30am this morning and was sick, for reasons I don't know of - again. It's incredible and it's really starring to bug me! I don't like being woken up to throw up. I know I felt really hot and bothered when I was trying to sleep, maybe I was anxious still, but I don't know.. I just couldn't stop writhing about in bed. Trying to keep still, I'd only get hotter!!!! GRRRR. So all day I've been getting hot flushes for no reason, even when I'm sat doing nothing, I start breaking out in a sweat and I just don't know why