Thanks, Sannah.

I think I'm afraid of showing emotions, or saying that I feel like crying because I feel like Counsellor will ask why I feel like crying and then talk more and more about what's making me feel like crying and then I'll cry and 'm just scared that she'll be like "see? It's not so bad" or that I won't be able to stop, or that I'll feel stupid, or that she'll laugh or something or feel like she's broken me down... I know this is all things that THEY did and stuff and it's still lingering there, scaring me... But i guess I'm not willing to take the chance...

I want to take the chance, I really do, but I'm just so scared of being rejected again and her thinking and seeing how weak I am..