or that you might float away from all the tears........ I hope you don't mind me teasing you a little!

Fear of the unknown maybe or fear of being triggered and being sent back to that time and reexperiencing it again?

You will do it when you are ready. Examining it like this is good work! I can see how you would feel all of these things........ Your feelings are valid (valid in that I can see how you would feel this way but not valid in that this is what will happen).