So I don't believe I am so split anymore. I am co-conscience pretty much all the time, things get fuzzy but not completely lost. Others can have control, but it is not total. If that makes any sense. So i have wanted this T to not know about my dissociation, but it has been coming out more thru my writings and journalings. I don't know how to deal with it, and I am afraid she won't believe it all. I also feel others becoming more present in therapy as they are feeling safer and I worry as last session things got fuzzy for me and I felt others taking more control. I am afraid I will do or say something I shouldn't. I am afraid she won't like me anymore. Or thinkI am lying or crazy. I also told her my memories are false and she believes that is true but there are those inside that disagree with that. HELP!!!!!