((((((Piper16)))))))

I understand what you are saying. The need to hurt--the wanting to cut to make it all stop--understanding that need to cut because of the fear or being overwhelmed or the pain and the wanting the memories to stop and the feelings to stop. They will as you work and you continue to give them a voice. I know it is hard, I am there and I hear you. To hurt is to let them win and you have been hurt enough. This is what I have to try to tell myself all the time.

Hurting yourself only last for awhile, then the pain of whatever it was comes back. It doesn't stop the memories or the pain, it just makes it more overwhelming for you because then you try all over again. You are going to be okay and I am not putting you down--I feel just the same as you much of the time. I validate what you are feeling, but I do not want you to hurt.

We have hurt enough and I do not want you to hurt anymore. I care and am here for you. I know what it is to have the choas going on--it is hard--it is turmoil. Insides are wanting a voice and needing to be heard, can you tell them they are being heard but that they need to work together? Today, I was in my t's office and I was trying to talk to him--I was explaining to him about how afraid I was of trying to work with them--my head was hurting so bad from the pressure they were putting on my eyes--everyone trying to see out and I grabbed my head.

He asked me what was going on and why I was so upset and I told him my head was hurting from all the pressure--He asked them to please step back so that I could talk to him and that he would hear them all and that they would have the chance to talk also--but to please give me a relief so I could not have the pain.

They did step back--I was surprised, and I realized that they just wanted the assurance that someone would listen and know they to were there. Do you think if you let them know that they are believed and will be heard it would help?

I just want you to know that we are here and care. I understand what you are feeling but I don't want you to hurt anymore--you too have hurt enough. Know we are here for you and are willing to listen anytime. I hope I have helped in someway. Keep reaching out here and talking. We are listening.

dps