I feel the same way....I feel alive after the depression is over. I'm now back to work after 2 full weeks. I pray that I stay positive and don't do too much to burn me out and I crash again and get depressed. I'm fighting so much not to get stressed out. I say no when I see I'm getting overbearden at work. I force myself to stay at my desk when I don't have something to do...instead of asking for more work. I read something upliftening....or check out my PM to see if there's anything positive to read. I PM some ppl in chat and they responded....I told them that a frown was a smile turned upside down...and it made them laugh...and they thanked me. I can't go on chat while at work so I've been posting lately. Chat is more of what I spend my time in PC. ok....I'm positive...and not depressed that's good for me today.

Tomorrow I'm going on a picnic...tonight I danced my little feet off at the Italian fest on Arthur Ave in the Bronx...nite I have to get up early tomorrow it's going to be a long day...after the picnic I have to go to my home group and pick up my 90 days coin. After celebrating 8 years of sobriety and relapsing I finally am going to get my 90 days coin. Well it wasn't a bad drunk...but I lost my sobriety and it kicks my butt.

Too much info...I didn't mean to go on...I wanted to talk about the mania and depression and I got back into my alcoholism. Well...I have a program and it worked before and it will work again....I think I relapsed because I was on so much medication. But I really don't know or care I just want to get better...and not fall back into the depression again. I will fight for my happiness....and I'll live happy joyous and free...