(((((((fallen)))))))

It seems you are very much addicted to cutting. I myself currently see the self harm stopping - but that's because my life's finally getting sorted (education wise) and thoughh I know I have a long while to stop, I know it will happen one day: I can take comfort in that.

However. Because you're in such a bad place right now and you aren't on the correct road to recovery...it's taking a while for you to see that there will be a time where you stop self harming. All you can do is hope. HOPE that one day it will stop. At least then you have some motivation to try and make it stop.

Good luck from me and loads of s

xxx