I totally feel the same way. I was always the best worker at my jobs, getting promoted quickly. I'm on disability now. My meds leave me totally flat. I used to be creative around the house with art and stuff but I have no interest in anything anymore, not even sex. My poor husband.

We just bought another home, a real fixer upper, and I'm dying for some mania to help me get all the work done. I'd be able to paint the entire house in a day! I definately miss my mania and I do things to try to kick it in, like drink energy drinks and take psudoephedrine (found in sinus medicine, I get sinus headaches). Sometimes it works a little. At least it gives me a little energy anyway.