I felt one coming on this morning and I was like "OH NO...PLEASE!!!!! NO!!!!!". It got cranked up pretty good but at trhe last second I tried to distract it by thinking about...er...a big piece of chocolate cake or something. It went away and did not progress to a full-blown one.

Then I immediately rushed into the kitchen and took a 1mg Ativan and sinceIhad a lot to get done today and I did'nt get much sleep last night I decided to have a little cup of motivation juice...UH-OH!!!,. BIG mistake!!!.

It feels like I have this panic attack that has been hanging over my head all day saying "sooner or later I'm gonna GITCHA!!. So far I've been lucky but a few time today, my throat had some tiny sharp painsin it and I was thinking "OMG!!!....RABIES!!!" and I could fee my heart start to race and the adrenalin shoot up through me. Then I had a hards time breathing and my thorat started to close up and I felt like this was IT...death itself knocking at my door!!.

Another thing that has me scared is that I heard that one of the symptoms of rabies can be that you are really horny all the time and in that movie I watched about the guy who had rabies, he was always trying to seduce this one woman. Of course, I have also heard that anxiety and panic can cause increased sexual desire.

Well, without getting too graphic here, I have been "going at it" like a mad man for about 4 days now and believe it or not, that scares the living CRAP out of me. I also get these very mild neuralgia-type headaches on the top of my head and little sharp pin-pricks in my throat here and there. Gosh, I'm about to have another panic attack just thinking about it. I amsop sick of living like this and I just took an Ativanthis morning sowhy is'nt it doing anything for me now?. What can I take?.

Pleaseeeee!!! )-: