I'm so sorry, this must all be very difficult and perplexing. I do not have an answer to your question but wanted you to know that I have heard you and i care. CBT should be helpful, so i'm glad you that, at least. Perhaps someone lese here will be able to be more helpful. I hope so. I also have PTSD and the meds i take (ativan and clonazepam) or only for sleep. However, my PTSD is not acute right now. I am bipolar also and am treatment resistant so i understand what it feels like to not have medication to help at least take the edge off. This is where therapy is so very important. I hope your T is kind and helpful.