Thank all of you for your responses. I think I am going to wait till I see her in session Tuesday of next week to address some of this stuff.
Sunrise,
I think a list is a great idea. Also, I will not be seeing my college counselor until July 7th as she will be away on vacation. It would have been nice if it took place before I went in to see my T again. To hear some objectivity for another in the field would have been great.
I am at a point now where unless she really apologizes for her behavior and offers a good plan, I am not going to be inclined to see her anymore.
This therapy is supposed to be about me, not her insecurities of having someone call her out on something unprofessional.
I have a feeling that she just wants me to be pushed along anyways. Who wants to stay where they are not wanted. It was like she took this opportunity to do what she may have wanted to do for a while. I sensed her frustration and defensive behavior the first time I brought up the issue about taking breaks 3 weeks ago.
She suggested that I take break when I emailed her saying that so much was going on and that I was having a hard time sitting down to study for an upcoming exam. I emailed back telling her that my intention was not to take a break just to inform her how things have been going between session.
She was not happy in the session and told me that she doesn't care what other people say, she will not change her mind about taking breaks. Personally, I think it should be totally up to me if I want to take one, not her opinion. If she made a simple statement saying that its ok to take a break if you want or need to that would have been good enough for me. Leaving the ball in my hands so to speak.
Deli,
Thank you for your well thought out responses. I'm sure you are correct after her last email to me. I don't think she has any intention of changing her view. It did not upset me at all, it was good to hear how it could be manipulated.
Fool Zero,
You mean I can be therapist for the day.....oh yeah, now that would be lots of counter-transference.
Amazonmom,
I like your idea of going without any expectations as far as her response. Going in an taking control for myself sounds like a good idea, though often, I feel so small in there.
Exoticflower,
Sticking to the facts is probably best, leaves less room for subjectivity.
Sort of like Sunrise's idea of a list to work through. It will be good to go in with a plan, but without high expectations as to the outcome.
Laura,
Thanks for your response as well. I decided that I am going to go in and see her. Hard as that may be.
Reflection,
I have thought of doing what you mentioned but as someone else stated I don't want her to have time to prepare for her response. I want to see her behavior in action when I bring these things up.
Echos,
Thank you as well, I will not be sending the email.
PS.....can I bring my voice recorded and set it to on in my purse, without telling her lol.....not that I could use it for anything but my own personal use, sometimes you forget much that took place......too bad that's not legal huh....