((Kiya))...if hugs are all right

Jmo, but I think you did the right thing about the violet. For whatever reason, your instinct was telling you to do it, and you listened to it.
Second guessing ourselves afterwards is something we all do...

Totally understand the reaction you are going through, and I hope you feel better soon.
Kiya, I had issues with my parents. After my father passed away, I took care of my mother when she was dying from lung cancer...it was not for her, it was for me.
It was hard on many levels, but I knew it would affect me in a far more dangerous way if I did not do it...my choice to do it so there was less guilt later on. I don't regret it. In fact, I did learn much from it.

Jmo, but I think whenever we make the decision to step outside our carefully built comfort zone, it shocks us.
We may not understand it at the time, but we usually do later on...

Catherine

Take care of you