um....Sky, i am talking about how my medical provider won't get back to me not my T.
I call and tell her that the pain in my left arm has turned into the entire limb being numb. No response.
I call and tell her that I think increasing a certain med during panic times might result in less self injury and can I please have her permission to increase it? No response.
I call and tell her i don't even remember what any more. no response.
so this time, when i had sereing (can't spell it) pain in my chest, throat, lungs that increased over time .... I tried to call her, I coudln't get through. I tried to leave a message and her asst answered who i don't trust.... and i gave up.
and i lived.
so heart attack or asthma attack or indigestion - it doesn't seem to matter.
I think I am going to cancel my stupid appointment next month, since there's really no point in going anyway and i really don't have the mula.

but thanks for your faith that i am getting better mentally =)