Now I seriosuly am getting pissed. Finding it hard to see the point of trying.

A few weeks ago I admitted myself to a mental hospital. One week later I felt much better so I decided to discharge myself. It's 2 weeks since then and I must say...what a regret I feel for discharging myself.

I am finding life vey stressful and it's horrible, completely ****ing horrible to know that I am slowly getting depressed again. One spell of happiness and I thought I was cured.

I am feeling so ****ing ****ed. My T reckons I have aspergers, im beginning to reckon that as well (but mainly I reckon I have OCD - I pull out my hair and bite my nails until they bleed: not to cause pain or SI just cus it's something I do and I can help it) and I actually miss being in hospital.

Hospital is just sooooo loviong and soft on you.No stress and no family to keep putting you down. Family **** you up. They don't mean to. But they bluddy do.

Sigh.

HELP ME.

I CANT HELP BUT NOTICE IM GETTING BAD AGAIN.