OMG. You have no idea how much that makes me feel better knowing someone else was where i am and got through it!!!!!!!!!! Thank you!!!!!

And actually, it's funny that you mentioned it because I was thinking myself that maybe writing it down would be easier because I really don't know if I can actually get the words out yet I know how much he needs to know so that I can through this s**t. Thank you so much again-I think I will do that...if I may ask, what did you do then? Give the writing to your t at the beginning of the session or at the end? Part of me thinks the end would be good cause then I wouldn't have to be there when he reads it but then i would DREAD the next session cause i would know that he read it. but then giving it to him at the beginning of the session would hurt because I'd have to sit there in misery and embarassment while he reads it but then at least it would be over with and I wouldn't have to wait a week to see his response.

What to do???? I'm so nervous about this. And he can really help me? And he won't be disgusted or traumatized? I'm so afraid he'll think I'm disgusting. Although in my mind I'm pretty sure he won't but still...

Thanks again so much!!!!!!!!!