I have had a really low day today.

I tried to get my daugthers faimly to spend time with her today, other than me and her stepdaddie, but no one would make the time.. I am almost at my wites end at how to get them to come to our home and spend time with her, .
I am almost in tears over this, it makes me sick, that we always have to go down there for them to do anything with her, they always want to spend time with her down at there house, not mine, .....

Why do some people have to be so uncaring, to me and my fiance' do they not understand how badly it hurts my feelings, and this week of all weeks, I hate to drive anywhere let alone, drive 14 miles to see them.. I know it will be her birthday tommorw and she will want to see them, but I just do not feel like going, I am so deperssed, I actually feel like doing something I have not done in a very very long time.. (cutting) or soemthing else.. Which is not like me, this time, my coffee has not helped, my chocalte has not helped, writing, reading journaling has not helped all the coping methodes I tell others about notta

What am I to do.. If I tell them I am sick and do not fell good will they come in here, and try to be freindly towards me, ?? oh why do I feel so much like this