SOrry you had a rocky day GG........your "motivation juice" sorta counteracted your Ativan, so I am not surprised you sorta felt like you were going to panic - and it just didnt quite get out. Leave the danged caffeine ALONE !!! :-)

YOU DO NOT HAVE RABIES.

Your "stinkin thinkin" came out full blown when u felt the first twinge of panic......and you did a great job of keeping the irrational thoughts going unfortunately. Thinking about chocolate cake is not quite what you need to think about - its more like NOT saying to yourself OH NO - PLEASE - NO"....its more about saying "Ok - I feel you trying to trip my trigger, and I am going to just sit here, breathe calmly, visualize somewhere safe and peaceful, and YOU are NOT going to get anymore attention from me "!

Walking is a great suggestion , as well as the soothing music, and progressive relaxation. These are skills you really need to learn.

What does your Rx for Ativan say ? Certainly it allows you to take it more than once a day - so it was great you took another one tonight, and I hope that calmed you down again.

Yup - on the breathing issue - you were tensed up, trying TOO hard to breathe - not using the explained diaphragmatic breathing techniques. WHen u were feeling like u were having trouble getting a deep breath - did you check your belly ? Bet u forgot !!!!

Congrats on doing the computer work......I am lucky to know how to turn mine on and off :-)

Keep on keepin on !