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Originally Posted by turquoisesea
well the week started off better =)
the exercise thing was REALLY helping. Only thing is on the job I was helping close - and doing that is really hard physically on my arms. So I haven't played cello since starting that, and haven't been able to do the exercise I was enjoying so much. And my sleep has been REALLY patchy - I've started taking some herbal remedy for it the past 2 nights and it seems to help.. I called in sick to work today because my sisters birds woke me up at 5:30 (I got to bed at 12:30ish?). Also been having major trouble handling long distance relationship with my bf, and that has been pulling on me. My mother thought I was irresponsible for not going to work today and for not getting enough sleep and therefore being a negative influence on a family event around noon today. I feel like a bad person when this kind of thing comes up.
So basically - I'm fighting, it's hard, but I still am fighting. I need to get exercise but in order to do that I need SLEEP. So I'm going to keep trying with the herbal remedies, not being on the computer before bed - these things have been working. And finding a way not to get woken up early, so that I can get consistant sleep. I'm also trying to find a way to reduce the pressure that comes from my bf, but that I'm not sure what to do about *feels helpless here*
Berries, thank you so much for checking up on me, it helps to write this out, even though it's long *sorry*
I hope everyone is doing well, been trying my best to keep up with posts even though sometimes I have limited access here
hugs to everyone 
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Hey, when you feel like your are bringing vegativity around your family functions do what I do Dont go! LOL I really dont go, when it is gonna stress me out. This came at the suggestion of my therapist. Its mainly my inlaws, because most of my family are no longer alive or we dont talk. But my inlaws have things all the time. They used to get mad. Now they understand, it is not there fault or mine, it is just the way it is. I come when I can and leave when I need to. Just a thought, I write long stories to..it feels better to get if off your mind by writing or talking! TT you ltr.