I'm also thinking about you. You've gotten so much negative input about your T, which may be valid, but you've got a relationship with her and haven't gotten, IMO, much validation for that. It's not so easy to walk away even if she's not good. I stuck with my T even though some of her statements to me would be considered unprofessional and unhelpful. I was too attached to leave her, but I also weighed the pros and cons, and decided there was more positive about the therapy than negative.

Even though most of the suggestions have been to terminate your therapy, and not even go back, it's up to you. None of us is there with you in your therapy. We can only advise you based on what you share with us; it's still YOUR decision how to handle it, not OURS.

I hope you're okay.