i can almost never get on PC on the weekends, have to wait till I can take a break during the week.

trust IS hard, little treehouse. I search for words of reassurance for you because I know some of your pain, but I am such an untrusting you know what (that word you told me not to use about myself) that I don't feel I have much room to talk.

I know you to be a very caring person (very!) and deep down, you probably know that yr T isn't punishing you. he may be doing a sort of triage, you know? to catch up - and IF that is the case and IF you aren't contacted immediately it is far from punishment, it's honor and high regard.

please take this, from SAWE who loves you