I am so depress and upset and stressout and everything else that goes with feeling like sh..I am going through so much with my son and the things he is doing and his problems and then with my family and my boyfriends family and him and i and finding a work and not able to live the way i would like too. i am so sick of people that i know say they are hard up for money they don't know the meaning of it all. i am so hard up for money i had to turn to something that i wish i didn't have to and i am so upset about that. i hate myself for that. no one understands what i am going throught and what i have to deal with. i just feel like running and never coming back. i cry and cry at hight. i feel i am a brother and i feel my son is too. i feel he would be happier with his real dad but he says he will not be. i don't know what to do anymore about anything. so lost so stress and upset..