Hangingon,

I actually think you should go to the appointment because it well let you know more concretely if she is the right one for you. You will know I bet in the first 5 minutes on how the session is going to go. Just don't let her back you into a corner and let her manipulate you that this was somehow your fault. It isn't. I think this could also give you some closure and confidence if you do decide to quit her because you are telling the word, "Here I am, and you better treat me right!" I know it feels so bad right now, but I see a very brave "survivor" standing up for herself and taking charge of her recovery and her life. Good for you!